feeling old

Stand Alone

Prompt: 5 minutes "Stand Alone" Stand Alone Stand alone. On your own two feet. See what you can do without any others to stop you, to help you, to harm you, to interfere, to suggest other ways. What does your heart say? What is your heart saying to you?  Stand alone. You already do stand

Stand Alone2025-08-12T09:28:37-04:00

Finding My Wheels

Right before Christmas, I spontaneously answered an appeal from an organization I’ve been a part of since 1991. They’ve changed their name in an effort to reposition the invisible malady we share. The idea was to spread the word about ME/CFS (Myalgic Encephalomyelitis/Chronic Fatigue Syndrome) by asking ten people to donate twelve dollars each to

Finding My Wheels2025-08-12T12:13:00-04:00

Nana’s 79th Birthday

October 26, 2014 I had an insight this morning: Mom “reaching out” from her 79-year-old vantage point, longing to share, impart, connect with the subsequent generations of her family. We roll our eyes, take in some things, but hurriedly, slightly irritated at the incessantness of it all. Some stories some of us have heard a

Nana’s 79th Birthday2025-08-12T12:17:52-04:00

Depression

Depression Depression is a lonely business. It sits behind one’s steady eyes, shaking your faith in yourself, your place in this world, your desire to stay in it. Sometimes it all just seems too much. And when you’ve felt like this more times than you can count, and you’re on the downhill slope of life

Depression2025-08-12T12:20:11-04:00

Six Weeks

In six weeks, I’ll be a grandmother, and I don’t really know what to think about that. Everyone says, “Congratulations! It’s so much fun being a grandmother! Bet you can’t wait to get your hands on that baby!” I do love babies. I consider “the nurturing mother” my strongest archetype. Yet for some reason, the

Six Weeks2025-08-12T12:34:18-04:00

Fingernail Moons

My kids used to call crescent moons “fingernail moons.” When I see those luminous, thin, curved lines gleaming in a dark night sky, I smile, remembering Caroline’s delight at this original analogy. Back then, I was slim and had nice legs. Back then my bum was perky despite two pregnancies. Back then I wore short

Fingernail Moons2013-09-21T15:12:47-04:00

“Older”

Prompt: 40 minutes: “Older” June 17, 2013 Older Older is a loaded word, a plant growing out of its pot, roots bound together in a clump of experience seeking desperately fresh soil, nutrients, water -- that life-giving, liquid oxygen. Older is not for sissies. No, it takes a bit of bravery, or at least the

“Older”2013-07-06T17:50:36-04:00

Ageless

Prompt: 24 minutes: “Ageless” May 16, 2013  Ageless Ageless is how I feel at 53. Such an odd number -- not sexy, not old and wise, somewhere in between. Reaching back, just a bit, I am vibrant, sexy, the life of the party. Sparkly, beaming on the outside, in the prime of life supposedly. Yes,

Ageless2013-06-02T23:20:04-04:00

“This book”

Prompt: 25 minutes: "this book" This Book This book I've tried to finish, publish, get out there for so very long, still sits on my cluttered desk, pulled, wrinkled, from the bag I took with me to the fall writer's conference this past weekend with high hopes of making headway in a seemingly never-ending process,

“This book”2012-11-05T17:22:55-05:00

Blogging in the New Year

Ok, so it’s a new year and I’m trying to blog - you know, continue that thing I vowed I would keep up with back in 2011 and now it’s already January 3, 2012 and I go to make good on my new vow to write at least weekly, for crying out loud, and I

Blogging in the New Year2012-01-04T16:07:09-05:00